When the Heart and Love Isn't on the Same Accord

 Eyes meet, palms sweat, hearts race, sparks fly, instant attraction, butterflies, lost composure, word stumbling and nervous laughs. Wow! True love has finally found you. Love is an emotion that is truly amazing. It lightens the heart and makes sure all your days are loaded with sheer delight. It makes you spontaneous, it energizes you and is as comforting as an evening summer breeze. You laugh at the same things and phone calls melt the heart. Being away from each other for minutes seem like hours because concentrating on something that doesn't involve the other is a thought in vain. To keep your hands off each other is a monumental feat. And if someone can't get with the program and accept the love you've found they become dispensable. 

Then one day out of the blue things begin to change. For some reason love picks a fight with the same heart that it seemed to care so much about. A silly fight it must be confessed. Said it didn't want to be friends any longer with the same heart that it promised that it would forever hold on to and never, ever hurt. Now that same hearts playing defense because it doesn't want to surrender. But how could it possibly win when love has all the power? That bully pulled a fast one. It snatched all the thrills that used to feel spectacular and before the heart could make its case it started ripping the strings of it like ribbons. How could it not know that those ribbons was the skeletal that was shielding all that it held so dear? Then it licked its tongue out as if to say don't you dare try to impose your love again because you will have the same coming. Showing no emotion it eased towards the door while a severely injured heart begged it not to go. It said, " I know things look pretty bad but a bandage here and a little caring there and I will be alright again. I forgive you and am willing to let bygones be bygones so please take your hand off that doorknob. If you didn't want a home in me why did you give me everything that I've been missing? Love responded, " I showed up to teach you a lesson." The heart said," And that is?" Love said," Stop being desperate because I didn't ask for your heart you pushed it on me." So in all actuality you hurt you.

Broken Hearts, But Incredible Memories

 Lying in the bed in need of sleep but without the peace of it. Hurting and cursing the tears that refuse to stop falling. Begging a broken heart not to drag the pain of love lost into a day that has no sympathy for the weak. Who do you call when you don't want to be told to move on when you're in love? So easy to tell some one that has no fight left in them that the pain of losing the love of their life will cease if they just stop looking back. That advice doesn't work until love says so. It's not water, you can't just turn it on and off. How in the hell do you pull the plug on love when it's very much alive? In others eyes you are the epitome of a fool. Hypocrites. They've gone through the same thing and no one could tell them to let go. 

The hardest part about going through love's rejection is trying to figure out how to protect your heart. It's easier said than done because you remember every minuscule thing about the person you wish you didn't have to lose. What they said, how they said it, their kisses, embraces, their smell, facial expressions, body language, rather they had a cold heart or were charismatic, their future plans, and most importantly how you were supposed to fit in their lives. How dare them treat you like you were temporary when you thought you were a keeper. 

No sense in pretending to be over them because the memory of them will keep resurfacing for a very long time. The pain of losing the person you love feels like some one is ripping your heart out of your chest. Dealing with the need to see them is also excruciating. Especially when you want them to say breaking up was a mistake. Hope hangs around because to not hope means it's over and that's a pill that's just too bitter to swallow. 

Only time can heal an embattled heart. The mind is selfish because it hangs on to what should be forgotten. Why doesn't the heart and mind get on the same page it could take some of the ouch out of the equation. When all's said and done the heart's trying to fight back, but the mind is stubborn and won't stop relishing in incredible memories that will never be again.

Broken Heart, But Incredible Memories is about the love you don't want to lose. How you want to give your heart a break because it has suffered enough. Hoping when there's no hope. Crying when laughing used to be so much easier. Loving when someone else can't see the vision anymore. Wanting to stay together when it's so obvious there's nothing left. Wishing that one more chance can make all the difference in the world. But how can it when both people aren't willing to put forth the effort?